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Another Sparatic Post :)
Friday, February 22, 2008

Hmmm, what should I blog about? Well, there is A. He seems to be relapsing a little. He has had 2 very angry outbursts at daycare this week. I don't know what's going on, but they were pretty bad. For the first one, he shoved a little girl and called her an "N" ... What is up with that? He should not even know that word. And it was a sweet little girl any way. The next day he was repeated screaming at his sister, then he kicked her and took his game that he loaned her and smashed it... He is already punished for a lot of other stuff that has been happening, so we had a talk, and if it happens again, he is coming out of basketball. I am not taking him in public if he is going to behave this way...

There's also my little Pearl. Things are ok there, but we did have an issue just before Vday... I planned a really great present, one that she knew I wanted to do. But apparently, she could not wait for me to do it. At the same time, she was moving. It was ugly. She hurt my feelings / pride buy not letting me give her the present she wanted; and it bothered her that I didn't help her move. But I really didn't want to anyway, due to something she had said (months ago) to her friends that were helping her move. We eventually talked about it and its OK now.

Ooh! I can't forget about work. I regret not taking that other job in Gonzales every day. Some days I want to quit so bad that I can barely stand to go in. There have been several days where I haven't done anything at all.

In general, things should be ok. I have a good girl that really cares about me. I have a Job that pays the bills. And I have 2 wonderful kids that love me. But sometimes I think about things that could have been, maybe even should have been. I remind myself that I am here for a reason, but it just seems like there was a time in my life when I was more passionate, creative. A time when my feelings, good and bad, were tangible. Sometimes it hurt, but when it didn't... :)

Well, I guess thats all the soul searching I can do for 1 night.....

2 Comments:

At 11:02 PM, Anonymous said...: Well, nothing like keeping us hanging! Your blogs are too few and far between.

Glad things are going well for you. Kids will be kids, not having the best of luck with one of mine right now either. It seems school is just not a priority! Oh well.

Work for me is ok, just about to take my state exam for my real estate liscense. I'm very exciting and looking forward to my new career.

Gonzales job? Didnt know about that! Don't you have friends in Gonzo? It's the place to be!

Keep writing, some of us stop often looking for words of wisdom. Something to do, to remember when we're lonely.
At 9:17 PM, Anonymous said...: well, in a perfect world, nobody would be lonely. everyone would be with the person they were meant to be with, and cotton candy would be free :)