First- UberTech decides to "protest" everything at work by not actually accomplishing anything. He is supposed to get as much as possible done at this particular client so that they don't fire us. but all day long I heard "I don't have CD's for this" or "there isn't a code for that" or my favorite "those codes won't work" - Well it was all BullShit!... the one app that didn't have a code.... I had a tech kill an hr on the phone with the vendor to get it, and I found out today, it was in the folder with the rest of the stuff all along. The app with no cd, well it was already downloaded on to the server and in a folder under IT_Dept that was labled with the name of the app.... oh yeah... the other one, well all I heard is how those keys won't work so we have to have the originals.... I tried those keys on an updated version of the software, and guess what? IT worked.....
Since he didn't finish, I knew I would have to go out. So, what do you think happened, my sitter changed her plans. And not just Any sitter, its my G/F. and she didn't change her plans because there was something that had to be done, nope. It was because she didn't want to tell her parents (she is 26) that she had agreed to look after my little ones so I could work. That seems small until you consider that she has told her parents that we are not dating (because they don't like me) and has been lying to them for nearly a year... So instead of coming clean with her parents, she leaves me hanging. And she is the first one to bitch about my other friends if they aren't chomping at the bit to pay me back for something that I did for them....
And that brings me to actually going onsite to do the work.. with my kids. I will have to say that my kids' behavior was pretty good... however I was there for 10 hours... They were not perfect... and I did get aggravated with all of the can I go here, and I need water. Then the arguing started..... By the end, I was ready to quit and move to Arkansas.
2 days as a manager and I am ready to burst. How do people do this on a daily basis. It is crazy!!! I have bosses running around like they hate the world. Techs, who are walkin the line, ready to snap. People who can't follow simple directions, and clients who think their 10K a year actually means that they can get atleast 1 tech any time they want and that it doesn't matter that they are already allocated.....
arrrgh i am too tired to finish this post
Yeah, It still sux!... I don't know what keeps me there. I am not really happy. I guess maybe I assume my life is supposed to be a little crappy at all times.
I just got a promotion yesterday. They made me Co-Technical Services Manager/ Client Manager. This now makes the 4th time I have been promoted to Client Manager by these guys... There was a little money, 3000, but I go from hourly to salary, so I actually lose a little money. Not to mention, that I still have a lot of stuff to do after hours, and I won't get compensated for that.. I know they say I will get comptime, but who will watch the techs.... My co-manager has a ton of Programming that he has to tend to. So, pretty much I had to bend over and take it.
On top of that, we are going to lose 1 of our best techs... Miss B is going to jet because they have now taken away all her technical duties. She is not happy! They keep yanking her chain and I think she has had enough. Its sad, because she is a Damn-good helpdesk tech.
OK, I got to go way back for this one. You know who I spent all night dreamin about this time? It was her. The root of everything. My first - in so many ways! Yeah, well I thought about her.
In my dream, somehow I found her number and left her a voice mail... She called back later, and I was like a kid in school, hiding in the restroom to talk to her a few minutes. Then I began to imagine her life, In Georgia (I have no idea if she is there, thats just the place my brain said she would be) then I convinced her to move back here. Even to take a apartment next to mine. The funny thing is... all I did was protect her... nothing else at all... No kisses, no lovin, nothing...
I know, it seems like I only post bad crap on here - that because I do only post bad crap. I guess I am a glass is half empty kind of guy. But, when I put it all down, it feels somehow more manageable. I think the act of putting together my thoughts to write it, actually begins the processing of the information for me.
Anyway, down to business... Things are not so good right now. My ex-wife is a no-good bitch who doesn't seem to think her kids are important enough for even 1 phone call. My children are all broken on the inside over this stuff. My girlfriend is great, but there are 3 things that will forever prevent her from being anything except a girlfriend. My bosses seem to think that appreciating me means to walk into my office everyday and say that I am not going unnoticed (then bitch and gripe about the little things that I can't finish because I am covering for them) and last, but definitely not least, my 9 year old son has threatened to kill himself. What a freakin life!!
Lets take these in order (sort of.) My ex. I don't know what to say about her, other than she is a very poor excuse for a human being. She is completely ignoring her children. I understand not remembering to call, but she has actually hung up on my son when he tried to call her! Right now, she has not spoken to her children in 6 months and has not seen her children in 14 months. she now has officially missedvmy son's last 2 birthdays. last time he at least got a call and some empty promises, this time he didn't even get that. She also missed my daughter's birthday, though she will blame that on me (i had lost my phone and didn't find it till after 10 pm and didn't ant to call as she in 1 hr ahead and lives with her parents) I did play the message for her, but that was the last time they heard from her, and it was more of a bitter msg directed toward me...
The kids don't now what to think... A is convinced she doesn't love him. I try to let them know that she has problems, and needs to get some help so that she can remember how to be a Mommy again, but they can only take so much. From their POV, she won't call; she hangs up if we try to call; she won't come see them; and she won't send them anything. To them, she is acting like she never wanted them, and it is tearing them apart. My son is taking it the hardest. He is having a lot of anger problems at school. He has been suspended twice this year for throwing things at people and making threats. Its not really helping that I have to work as much as I do, and I am trying to make positive adjustments to correct that. He is hurt and is closing himself off from everyone. He wants to hold it all in and show that he is tougher than she is, but it is coming out at the wrong time, in the wrong way, and directed at the wrong people. We have started counseling, and I thought it was helping, but then 2 days ago, he was making threats about killing himself, and wishing he was dead. We went straight back to the therapist and we both sat in a session. It looks like he was doing it more for the attention than to actually hurt himself, but he does have low selfesteem right now....
Work, that is a joke. I bust my ass, and get bitched at because a time shet isn't printed and signed. I know that is for their records. they don't use that to process payroll, only to keep as a signed record of my time.... I was busy trying to keep us from losing 3 clients early in the week, and I am sorry, but it kind of slipped my mind... I have asked to see the paperwork that I signed when I was hired, and ever since, the owners have ended every conversation between us with "your aren't going unnoticed" It is quite comical. I don't need to hear that, I need to see that. Put some money in my pocket so that I can afford to take my kids to the movies 2X a month. Make it so I don't have to wait 2 weeks till payday when the kids get a hole in their shoes... In short, don't say that you appreciate me, just appreciate me!!!
Now for Pearl, things are mostly great, except for 3 items that really irk me. 1) he is very blunt. usually this isn't a problem, except when it comes to the kids. 2) she takes no initiative with the kids. She has been my G/F for nearly a year now. Its time to step up and show them that she enjys being around them (and if she don't enjoy it, then she needs to go) 3) she has an issue with telling her parents about me. They don't like me and are very crazy (nearly psycho) so she is scared to tell them that we are together. My POV is that she is an adult, and the Hell with what they think, but don't lie to them, thats the kid thing to do....
OK, I don't really fell any better, but maybe it takes a while to set in... :)
